I`M REALLY REALLY SAD.

things are really turning upside down nowadays. i cant control this
why such bad things actually happened to me ?
losing friends ? really BAD results ? ETC.


am i not myself nowadays ? srry i f i made you guys feel this way..
i really cant control myself..
kept crying.. i didnt look so weak rights ? i know i look tough la. tyty =D

ytd night my sister called me and told me somthing which really scare me.
i cried.


today .... . . .. . . ...
GEOG was the first period. was worried , but i knew i will be one of the 13 ppl who failed.
but i ddnt know i failed so badly..
i cried.
NC KOH scolded us like seow , she think very shuang isit ? ey.aunty i very bu shuang alrdy , you still scold me i ba bu de yi quan gen ni zou guo qu ahr ...
KOH" at one glance i can tell that you didnt study for this paper , why you choose to fail geography ? why why why ?"
eyy...please lor. you think i want to fail isit ? wah i never study ? yr head lor..
i can say i lie on bed , eat , sit , bath , sleep even go toilet also study geog trying to memorize all the facts , but i just cant seem to get it into my brain .
as for why i wanna fail geog i really dunno.. and i don think there will be an answer for it too..
cos i think i fail means i fail , i put in the effort and you think i ddnt then its yr fault that you think that i ddnt study for the paper , pls la. i not only fail yr paper , i failed others too..
actually she said alot more , but i think shall stop talking bout her..

next ..

HISTORY.
i knew i will fail this too.. i was prepared.. but i too ddnt expect myself to fail so badly.
but my yeow was great , he ddnt scold us . NC KOH shld learn frm him...
i cried again , this time very badly.cant control mah.
my eyes were very red like jelly agar agar ?

my mum called...
she told me what happened , i cried even badly.
I REALLY CANT CONTROL , but at least i felt better ..better than i keep everything in my heart right ?


my results realy really sucks..maybe i shld get outa this sch ?
start afresh in a neighbourhood sku ?
i really think im nort qualified to stay in AHS. so guyys ,, if one fine day , i will have to face the fate that i have to get out of this sch don blame me cos this is not i wan ,, i tried my best but if results turn out to be still so lousy i really cant do anithink.. srry guys.


aiyoyoyoyoyoy hope all this really really bad things will come to an end . i dead road.
i hate this . get a life manz..

LOVE YOU. <33