伤心因为无法帮到你们，法尔年类你们跑得更多更累
因此感到非常内疚，真的很抱歉，无法把握球'
也很害怕再也没有这个能力去帮你减轻负担
Really sorry, i couldnt help despite how much i want to.

This feeling is like i trained so hard just to complete that long run, but when i almost reach the finishing line, i fell so hard on the ground. Anybody know how horrible and dissapointing that feels? Anyway, its really sad to mention all these.

Sometimes i wonder if its worthwhile, sacrificing myself for this passion.