I did something stupid today. I stared into the mirror and i'm reminded of how blunt and round my nose is so i took out a white board marker and tried drawing a sharp and small nose on the mirror, hoping that i will look better. But to no avail, i looked disgusting.. my drawing sucks. =(

Saw kendra on the way home today. Saturday night should be going her house to study. Omgomg, i wonder when was the last time i went her house. Its been years!

Yes ah! tmr wont have to go school early. You know what right? Tomorrow is Thursday. I can't believe it, i'll have to go through hell. I feel like crying..


They said by swallowing a heavy dosage of pill, you can die in your sleep.
They said your brain will tell your body not to wake up.
This means that I've found a way to die without pain.
I'm seriously considering it, since my life's so screwed and i timidly turned away from problems.
I'm not fit to be in this world. I hate myself, i really do...
Oh lord, please take me away. bring me far far away from all these myseries.

One moment i tell myself I must persevere and I must never give up.
The next minute I shout and say, "I want to die!"
Someone, please slap me hard.

I don't wish to create anymore trouble, that was why i decided to obey your order and do 50 push ups today. I'm in the process of growing up, give me more time.