They told me the best year i played was when i first came into ahs, maybe that explains why i got a fair share to play as compared to the chances i've got now. Now, i stupidly wish that i could bury myself and live life happily in memories. I lost to myself again and again, this ought to be a big big joke.

I would seriously be glad if im able to contribute to the team. Looking at how the seniors are fighting so hard today really touched me deeply. All i could do was to seat down and give them words of encouragement and applauses. I think you guys did well despite the fact that you're fighting the bacteria inside you, you guys still managed to fight our opponents. This time im finally moved to tears.

Oh dear, please tell me what i can do when i've lost the best i can achieve...