Here's a soul for heaven, I just want to be happy.

I tried, i really did. I tried hard, i gave in all.
Yet all i could do was THIS. Yet all i got was this.
I thought everything will be fine for basketball.
I was wrong, wrong to the core.
I thought being strong was everything, so i stood up there looking strong.
But i guess the more i try, the harder i fell.
I thought being happy was simple, so i was being hyper active everyday.
Yet i guess i was just being a clown to everyone.

I loved myself so much, yet after this heavy blow I want to end this straight.
I thought i could heck care about those people who dont like me, yet i was so dam wrong.
I was so dam ban on achieving our common goal, but im going down down down.
I was just wondering why everyone have so much to say when it comes to me, and i think i got an answer.

I held on there, i thought i could take it and live with it. And i was wrong again.
For once, i was so sure i was going to leave this for good.
Yet again i dont want anyone elso to die like how i did.
So i thought i should just hold there awhile longer.

I thought being nice was the best thing and i know i have a heart of gold, but im sure being nice is just being unkind to yourself.
I told myself i should throw that gold away, cos Why should i be unkind to myself when hardly people's kind to me.
When i fall and cry, yes you know what's called pain.

I cant possibly express how shitty i feel now. DAM DAM DAM SHITTY okay.

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Say you love me one more time.
Sigh... I need you so badly.

And again, let me make this clear. If you think you know very well, think again.
Cos' i beg to differ. Yes, I BEG TO DIFFERRRRRRRRR.