Lost a game, but not losing my passion

i'm trying hard to stay postive over here.. but my sadness is really really overwhelming me.
My efforts did not pay off, injuries weren't worthwhile. Yes we deserve to lose the previous two matches.. We were suppose to be the champion team, but we got thrashed by second and third.

during the match, i told myself there's still hope, stay strong, the team CAN DO IT.. I wonder if you could see me giving hundred and one percent.. not giving up even when the clock is left with 3.29mins and we were down by 20 points.. i was hoping and hoping, fighting and fighting.. i wonder if i managed to touch you, i wonder if i could bring you to fight together with us. but i guess i didnt manage to. For now, things are different, cos i donthave a chance to not give up anymore..

I totally hate this feeling.. everytime after losing a match, i would go home and reflect on what went wrong, and make sure we dont do that the next game.. For now, things are different, cos even if i reflect, WE DONT frigging have a next game to play. I totally hate this feeling, cos whenever i decided to skip school, i would go to a nearby basketball to shoot some hoops, go to gym to improve strength, go swimming to improve my stamina.. at least when i was doing all this, i was heading towards something. For now, things are different, when i skip school again will i still hit the hoops?

I could totally remember myself talking basketball the whole day and not getting sick about it at all.. but now, things are different, whenever i recall about the losing games, my tear glands are triggered. I can totally remember myself standing strong after a fall during match, running like some idiot even with a severe knee injury. For now, things are different..

Things are going to be very very very very different..

Whatever it is, my basketball life will not mark an end here. I know i'm still going to carry on with basketball as i grow older..But one thing im very very certain of, is that my love for this team will never ever fade away. whatever team sg, team ayg, team hc.. my feeling for jiemueixz will never be replaced.

you need to know, i'm proud to be Team jiemei. <333333333333

haiyoooo people spread rumours like crazyyy. lame! hahaha but anyway thanks for accompanying me when i was emooooo. <333333333333333333