words to say

There's so many things I want to say right now that I could write an essay. Too many things that happened, even pictures cannot illustrate. Today, I went through so many different stages of difficulties and hardship, even I myself cannot believe it. But did you know? I saw things that could never be learn from the story book nor the textbook. Learn things that teachers would never be able to convey.

I remember the last time I felt down, I wanted to go to the beach to shout my lungs out. And I did. I felt better, and the cycle repeated. But now, I really dontknow what I could do to make myself feel better. Lemme repeat, I'm not a weakling. It's just so extreme that I could dream of a particular person screaming at me every single night. And without fail, I woke up with the same person screaming and nagging into my head. I woke up this morning, with some announcement like thing ringing repeatedly in some nerves inside my brain, it said continuously WHY ARE YOU UP SO LATE, WHY ARE YOU UP SO LATE... and it just wouldn't stop. It goes on and on and on and on until i freshen up myself with some icy cool colgate. To realize that it was actually my alarm clock ringing.

I swear everything is taking it's toll on me all at once. Nevertheless, I'm taking things at its stride and facing it positively. I'm quite proud of myself to see how I handled everything today, really. Braved through and survived. Firstly, I reached school at 9am this morning to know that I couldn't help out in this project. It was a project regarding microsoft access. And I've no clue how to help. Cos the thing is, this project you cannot delegate the work and weirdly it's not really a teamwork kinda project.. So Nat did most of the work. Even though I couldn't help out for this subject I tank the other modules, which are as close to 70% of it?

Plus my family quarreled, yet again. Over a matter so small a tiny ant could trip over.

HURRRRR, too much to elaborate on.

When everything was left unsettled, we had to react calmly and go for our Marketing Research presentation. My teacher gave us feedback and our presentation grades on the spot, right after our presentation. The feedback for the general group presentation was positive. And for the individual verdicts, he said "Samantha, at first you fumbled quite a bit and said a few YUPS, but gradually you took on the flow and went on perfectly well. You were the first person in my three classes who did not have any concluding slides, yet you were so confident and clear with your points. You managed to convince me with what you wanted to convey. For these, I gave you an high A" I SWEAR, he made my day. It was like melody singing to my ears, his compliments were just invaluable. At last, I could see the teacher seeing my efforts. Because I was the leader for this module, I did so much for this spent so many sleepless nights, but everything was just remunerative.

Wanna thank God for all these. I am just really thankful, felt like he was really there for me during the most crucial periods.