I was talking to SM about IVP matches. You know I dint perform the whole season at all, I was totally off peak, off form and anything gross you can think of. I don't even know if I was playing basketball, was I holding an orange bomb or something?
Everyone has their ups and downs, I know we can never always be at our peak. It's my fault that I had been skipping trainings, I know I got myself into this. Till now, I still stick to my point that I am losing it and I feel like giving up something that I held on for so long. I am barely hanging on.. as much as I wish to shine on court again, as much as I want to get this passion back, I really feel the distance. This interest and passion was with me since I was a kid, I really liked everything about the hoop.
You know, Monday is our semi finals against SIM. You dontknow how much I really want to play, how much I really want to find myself back on court.
我真的很想找回自己，这种心酸我很难说，你也不会理解。我不是一定要跟以前一样，纯粹只想要慢慢一步一步的爬起来。我不想，也不敢想太多，我害怕又像那时候一样哭着回家，那种感觉真的好难受。我不想十年后望着这个奖牌，告诉自己这不是你自己争取的。不是我辛苦得来的东西，我真的不想要。我很清楚篮球是 a team sport， 但是想想看没有努力换来的成绩怎么会开心呢。最近的我，不知道怎么了，想太多。
现在的我，也不知道该不该给自己多一个机会去努力， 你说呢？
2 comments:
u can tell me about it. happens to me way too many times
Hi:) That's sweet thanks for offering your listening ear :)
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